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In Rest

In rest
I am nothing more
Than impossible though
You my love are just
A warning shot
Twice this week
I let the very ground
Slip beneath my feet
I fell and
I do
To face the horrid memories
Of you
It’s the longing
It’s the ache
I wish to divorce
But that’s against the laws
And the laws install fear
In a man
You know that
I’m afraid
Of the Devil
I’m afraid of Man
I might be God fearing
But I’ve got a plan
I will end the beginning
Just to end the end
Put a stop to my fear
Tonight I shall sleep
Drinking the black water
And finally find my peace

The First Time I Died

I sat alone
In a field under a black empty sky
But to my surprise
One single star
Caught my eye
And to me the will
Began to lift me up
The closer I got
The more the light grew
Until there was nothing left
But the warmth of
Someone bigger
It held me like a small child
And told me I was the one
To endure hardships
Of that beyond
His son
But it all must be done
And in my darkest hour
He would send me angels
Black wings and eyes
To deliver me the gift
Of prophecy
But wouldn’t tell why
I bed him no
And told him
I wished to stay
Forever as an embryo
In his loving embrace
Lost to the world
But he told me
I must go home
He told me my mother
Was waiting
He showed me my father praying
And my brothers
tear filled eyes
He gave me to angels
Those of the highest ranks
To lead me
Back through the light
To everyone waiting
White doctors
In the steel room
Moved my heart
And soon after
Started the beat hence forth
The blood that moved
Clear to my head
Anchored my soul
And I was alive again

My Mind Has Made Me Wait

Lost in the night
The cold fog
Envelopes my skin
I feel that
Nothing matters
The purest of rains
Washes nothing away
So tonight
I’ll carry my own cross
While you carry my nails
The thought of tonight
Crucifixion
Sets my soul
Free from its body



Those That Observe

Lovely girl
Who rests her head
Against my chest
Tells me that
My heart beat
Is unlike
Anyone she’s ever loved
And she loves it
Even if it will
Be the death of me
Those eyes
Are such a rarity
For those lips
Are purity
Against your skin
I find sanctuary
Your laugh
Gets the best of me
So tell me again girl
Why are you leaving
I found you
Your ring
But I know
A diamond
Isn’t everything
But what about our dreams
Of rainy streets
Lost somewhere
In Oregon
How has all of this
Fled your mind
Sweet beautiful
Girl
Your eyes
Capture me
Your lips
Are pure ecstasy
And your skin
I wish to make
A part of me
So tell me girl
Why do you leave
I have those dreams
And for you
Your diamond ring

Buzz Killer

Tonight I hate myself
For answering
Your beckon call
Without revealing
Everything you need to hear
I try hard not to tell you
About all the things
I love and lost
But as of yet
You are it
No matter how hard
You try and forget
I can feel it in your voice
And I can taste it in your kiss
Tonight I shall not sleep
For now our love
Is a become a ghost
That’s been left to haunt me
With fragmented affairs
My dreams are that which bind me
Tonight know that
I am with you
Your candles fleeting flame
Is my hell burning inferno
Tonight
You try to tell me
Not to
Dwell on the past
But understand
It’s the future
I wish you in
Tonight I wish
That I was home
So I could wipe away your tears
Run my hand through your hair
And once again
Bring peace to your quivering heart
I know that you aren’t made from stone
I know that you have warmth
I just wish you could let me in
If you fear
Fear not
So tonight know that
love will calm the ache
Tonight I cant help
But love you